More Than I Can Do

In the book Ella Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine, Ella finds out that her maid is actually a fairy. Ella wonders why the maid didn’t tell her before, and the maid pointed out that when people find out you’re a fairy, they expect you to do great things. When the Mistress of the household witnessed her mother dying, she hated the fairy maid for not bringing the mother back to life.
Some people are like that. Why do good people die? I honestly don’t know. I do know that it’s all part of God’s plan. He’s working out all the kinks to make sure that His Kingdom (which includes you!) will prosper.
We expect God to do amazing things, and that’s ok. We expect that because He can. God created the world (Genesis), God helped His people win great battles (Old Testament), God gave up something precious to Him (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John) for us, and on top of that, he rose from the dead. That’s amazing!
When something terrible happens, we blame God. When your favorite uncle dies, you ask, Why me? You may hate God now, think He doesn’t care about you, or think He doesn’t even exist. That hate can stay with you for the rest of your life if you don’t let it go.
We think that because God can raise people from the dead, He should. He’s done it before, several times. Even to Himself. Sometimes we think that if we could just take over for a second and be God for just one moment (ever seen Bruce Almighty?) then we can fix everything. The problem is, we can’t. We are not God and will never be. We will never be wise enough or powerful enough to map the future of the world, to look at six billion people and guide them individually through life.
Sometimes I doubt God’s plan. I wonder why He chose to do this or that. It’s still hard to accept change (especially the bad kind) and to still live for Him. But now I know that God WILL do what’s right, what is just, what is merciful, what is kind, what is good. I know now that he is never wrong, always knows what’s up, and thinks ahead. That’s more than I can do.